Tuesday, September 1, 2009

My Presence

It took me longer than usual to be able to click the "publish post" button to show you this. This is a little bit nerve racking. Ugh! Here goes!

On Monday I was listening to a teaching which was desperately needed to hear. In these last couple weeks I have had some really emotionally hard days.

I am sharing this because of the teaching link that I will make, not because I want to somehow get comments or compliments on what I do look like or not. I (and only I) have been having a hard time with the after pregnancy weight that I still have. The main reason is because at Gabe's current age with Carson I was fitting into more of my clothes. I know the obvious, Gabe is only 5 months old, I am older, I have now had 2 babies and not just 1, BUT it still is hard on me. I have expectations and right now my body is not meeting them. Frankly, after my meltdown episode on Saturday night, I think I have been kinda depressed about it all. This is really kind of embarrassing to write about. Not so much fun to be so open about my daily battle.

OK, the teaching. Part of being a Christian is to display the Lord's fruit. And I know for a fact that I have not been doing that much at all lately. I have had a bad attitude, mainly to my family. Hard on Carson, frustrated easily with teething baby Gabe, not so nice to Trever or my mom. I have had better attitudes that is for sure.

The other part of the teaching is about His presence being recognized in me. I know that when I am sobbing in the bathroom or in bed, that the Lord's presence probably isn't being recognized. Man! Where would I be without His new mercies? I am so amazingly thankful for that. Thank you Jesus for washing me white as snow!

As you go about your daily routine I encourage you (and myself) to remember to be that light for the Lord, show people His presence in your daily life. Work, school, parenting, driving, shopping, whatever it may be. Remember to display His fruit.

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Eph. 5:22-23

I pray this can encourage you in some area of your life right now.


1 comment:

Mama Amy said...

Simmone, I don't know if you remember me, I stayed at your house once long ago with Krystal. Actually it was one of the first nights of going down to see Jon at Applegate...who I married. The Lord is so good. Anyhow, I found your blog through Krystal's and have had the joy of watching you mother your two beautiful boys. I have two little boys too and can relate with you on so many levels. (Jonah is 2 and Javan is 4 months) You have been a real encouragement to me. I am struggling getting the weight of this time too. Thank you for your honesty and your Love for our Lord. I know He is meeting us both. Amy Knudson.